You are who I hate the most.
They make me look bad. Like a fool. Like I'm mad and idiotic and plain crazy. Damn your children, God. Damn those idiots who call themselves Christian.
It's the Arts Festival... I hate the A.F. Too many people in a small 'city'. So in this time of lot o' sinners, obnoxious in-your-face Evangelists go around the town spreading the Good Word (no sarcasm in that last bit). I don't like talking to them. Ever. I just get angry. Very. Case and point: myself and a few of my friends (let's say 5) where sitting in Eyre Square just talking about bollocks. Two old ones come up and start telling us about things we were approached about twice before. "There's no greater thing than accepting Jesus in to your life." Agreed. We're ok so far. "Have you accepted Jesus in to your life, young man?" The male said to one of us. Out of respect not to insult these peoples beliefs my friend said "I'm agnostic." We're still going fine. They then asked us all one by one going around the group. I put my head down. I felt myself getting annoyed. Something was going to go wrong and I knew it was going to happen in the next few seconds. But what would it be? Finally, they asked my friend Emma. She said "Oh, I'm pagan." The couple laughed. BINGO! We have a winner! I went from 'fly in my face' annoyed to 'unforgiving loathing and burning hatred for the human race' annoyed in a split second. In my head I was screaming "What gives you the right?!" Fucking. Idiots.They make me sick. Those who laugh, LAUGH at other peoples beliefs. Because that's what Jesus did, right? These people seem to think so!
After years of not telling anyone I have openly admitted I believe in God and Christianity is the way for me. In my head, that took a big step. Some people laugh, I put them in their place with a quick rant about how I never press it on them and I accept them for who they are so they can accept me or, basically, fuck off. Some people insult, I laugh because I've heard it all before. And a few accept it right off the bat and think no different of me and respect my choice. These people are the jewels of my life. I am in no way a model Christian. By NO means. I battle every day with it. My mind fights my soul and heart. I swear, drink a little more than I should (I don't get drunk because I hate the feeling of it), I say things a shouldn't, I fight, I smoke weed from time to time for the point of getting out-of-my-skull stoned, I do all that stuff. The drink and weed is linked to depression but that is in no way an excuse.
Here is the point I want to make: I am not the best, but those who think they are, are the ones who I see laughing at people outside the bubble. That is not acceptable as a follower of Jesus. That is not related to his message. That is supported by Churches. Every day I see or hear of people who cling to the Old Testament. The message of love is out the damn window! (Ironic how I'm preaching love in a hateful letter) They expect little of me, but the world expects more from them.
Some people are amazed. When stuff like this happens they find it cool or strange that I can list off things about the Bible that contradict what some Christians do. When people go off disrespecting or giving out against Christianity or the idea of religion I go head-to-head with them and fight them with knowledge on why they should respect the idea if they believe it or not. When people ask about stories or fact about the Bible or about religion I can 99 times out of 100 tell them, to the best of my abilities, and the answer would satisfy them. Peter, a good friend of mine, said to me after his Religion Exam "Some of the stuff was really hard! They asked all crap about Bible characters and shit that I had no clue about. I wish I would have had you over my shoulder, Ronan, so you could have told me all the answers!" He told me some of the questions and I answered them. He told me some of his answers to others and said after "Don't go telling me your answers! I don't want to know if I got it wrong because you know too damn much about that stuff that I know I'll be wrong." We laughed through the whole thing. It seems sometimes that I understand more of the Bible and of its teachings than some older than me and more 'experienced' in the Faith. That is disappointing. These people go out and exclaim to the world! But what if what they are saying is wrong? That has a major rebound effect of other Christians. Yet these people are oblivious that they are spreading stereotype after stereotype. I do not force my beliefs on anyone. I try to do what Jesus did: try, to the best of limited abilities, to be a good person that loves people and share when asked about my beliefs or when the time feels right to. Defend my faith with knowledge not violence. Correct those Pharisees that spread false ideas and legalism about Christianity.
The whole thing just pisses me off and I am not afraid to hide it.
It's the Arts Festival... I hate the A.F. Too many people in a small 'city'. So in this time of lot o' sinners, obnoxious in-your-face Evangelists go around the town spreading the Good Word (no sarcasm in that last bit). I don't like talking to them. Ever. I just get angry. Very. Case and point: myself and a few of my friends (let's say 5) where sitting in Eyre Square just talking about bollocks. Two old ones come up and start telling us about things we were approached about twice before. "There's no greater thing than accepting Jesus in to your life." Agreed. We're ok so far. "Have you accepted Jesus in to your life, young man?" The male said to one of us. Out of respect not to insult these peoples beliefs my friend said "I'm agnostic." We're still going fine. They then asked us all one by one going around the group. I put my head down. I felt myself getting annoyed. Something was going to go wrong and I knew it was going to happen in the next few seconds. But what would it be? Finally, they asked my friend Emma. She said "Oh, I'm pagan." The couple laughed. BINGO! We have a winner! I went from 'fly in my face' annoyed to 'unforgiving loathing and burning hatred for the human race' annoyed in a split second. In my head I was screaming "What gives you the right?!" Fucking. Idiots.They make me sick. Those who laugh, LAUGH at other peoples beliefs. Because that's what Jesus did, right? These people seem to think so!
After years of not telling anyone I have openly admitted I believe in God and Christianity is the way for me. In my head, that took a big step. Some people laugh, I put them in their place with a quick rant about how I never press it on them and I accept them for who they are so they can accept me or, basically, fuck off. Some people insult, I laugh because I've heard it all before. And a few accept it right off the bat and think no different of me and respect my choice. These people are the jewels of my life. I am in no way a model Christian. By NO means. I battle every day with it. My mind fights my soul and heart. I swear, drink a little more than I should (I don't get drunk because I hate the feeling of it), I say things a shouldn't, I fight, I smoke weed from time to time for the point of getting out-of-my-skull stoned, I do all that stuff. The drink and weed is linked to depression but that is in no way an excuse.
Here is the point I want to make: I am not the best, but those who think they are, are the ones who I see laughing at people outside the bubble. That is not acceptable as a follower of Jesus. That is not related to his message. That is supported by Churches. Every day I see or hear of people who cling to the Old Testament. The message of love is out the damn window! (Ironic how I'm preaching love in a hateful letter) They expect little of me, but the world expects more from them.
Some people are amazed. When stuff like this happens they find it cool or strange that I can list off things about the Bible that contradict what some Christians do. When people go off disrespecting or giving out against Christianity or the idea of religion I go head-to-head with them and fight them with knowledge on why they should respect the idea if they believe it or not. When people ask about stories or fact about the Bible or about religion I can 99 times out of 100 tell them, to the best of my abilities, and the answer would satisfy them. Peter, a good friend of mine, said to me after his Religion Exam "Some of the stuff was really hard! They asked all crap about Bible characters and shit that I had no clue about. I wish I would have had you over my shoulder, Ronan, so you could have told me all the answers!" He told me some of the questions and I answered them. He told me some of his answers to others and said after "Don't go telling me your answers! I don't want to know if I got it wrong because you know too damn much about that stuff that I know I'll be wrong." We laughed through the whole thing. It seems sometimes that I understand more of the Bible and of its teachings than some older than me and more 'experienced' in the Faith. That is disappointing. These people go out and exclaim to the world! But what if what they are saying is wrong? That has a major rebound effect of other Christians. Yet these people are oblivious that they are spreading stereotype after stereotype. I do not force my beliefs on anyone. I try to do what Jesus did: try, to the best of limited abilities, to be a good person that loves people and share when asked about my beliefs or when the time feels right to. Defend my faith with knowledge not violence. Correct those Pharisees that spread false ideas and legalism about Christianity.
The whole thing just pisses me off and I am not afraid to hide it.
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